I just feel very uncomfortable if my words are not out.
It was Wednesday after school... I had choir practice... And I was asked to play the piano since those 'pro' pianists were not here. So I was playing for my section (Altos) and suddenly our choir conductor came in so I started to panic. (If I panic, it's either I will be stun for a while or do the wrong things) I accidentally played the wrong note. The whole room was dead silent until the conductor said
"This is rubbish. Who are you?"
"Jerlyn"
"Stand up, I want to see who you are. What grade are you at? Grade 1? 2?" (in a hush manner)
"Grade 5"
In my mind I was like WTF?!?! Am I that lousy? You have only heard my playing once and there you go determining my piano skills? Come on! It's just one f!"£$%^ note! I'm just a hidden pianist in the choir who only plays when I'm really needed!"
From that day onward I feel really dull when playing the piano. Not motivated anymore... Stupid right? Dull because of someone's words. I don't usually care about what people say. But this really affects me. I don't know why
